Things I Miss About Being Fat

Yes, you read that right! There are actually things that I miss about the fat life. It's weird, when you're going through the process of weight loss surgery, you can't imagine anything better than the skinny life. You tell yourself "Nothing tastes as good as being skinny feels."  You look at the clothes and see that 2 or 3 at the first number and can't wait for the day for it to be a 1 or a single digit number. But the longer this life has gone on, the more I miss 3 things.

1) Being able to hide in public. There's an amazing amount of people that avoid eye contact when you're larger. First off, shame on them. If they don't do eye contact at all, cool, doesn't bother me. But there have been numerous times that I saw them make eye contact or smile to my skinnier friend and act like I wasn't in the room at all. As annoying as it was at the time, there are some days I miss it. There are days when you go out and you just want to be invisible. You want to go in a store and not be asked for help. You want to not be part of the crowd, you want to not exist. I'm not talking in a depressed kind of way but there are days we all just feel like we want to be alone. After I got below 230, it became harder and harder to avoid the eye contact. You also can't just look down because people say "Are you okay?" or some old man says "Smile, sweetie." Ugh...

2) The cushion in padding. HOLY CRAP. I totally underestimated the knottyness in bones. I'm a side sleeper and I have to have a pillow between my knees now. How do skinny people do this? I started needing that pillow by 280...I hate standing with my hands on my hips and feeling my hip bones. At first it was pretty cool, feeling them for the first time in ten years. Now, I want to wear padded pants so they aren't there. And that collar bone...I use to shrug my shoulders forward to see them...now I see them in all shirts. To be honest, I'm still fascinated by them unless I have to touch them. Oh dem bones dem bones.

3) Lastly and most importantly, a slice of pizza! At some point in my life, I'll be able to eat a full slice again. I truly took it for granted being able to go to a buffet, eat a slice of cheese and a slice of something else. I know I'm not suppose to eat pizza but occasionally, I want it. I've learned that it's better to eat something than to completely avoid it. Yes there are slider foods but life is too short to not eat a slice occasionally. It's one of my favorite foods, always has been and always will be. One day....maybe not a full slice like this but isn't it a beauty? Happy 2 years since this lovely slice.

Michelangelo's Pizza. Swansboro, NC 8.27.16

While I miss these things, there are so many more things I don't miss....Until next time! ~KM

WT: 225 lbs (-96lbs!!!!)